The sun is shining today after a few days of rain and thunderstorms, which I can't complain living in TX. Yesterday, my daughter and I were pretty upset looking out my bedroom window yesterday into our neighbors yard. Our neighbors have two dogs, what looks like a collie mix and a german shepherd mix. It was pouring buckets and thundering. The german shepherd mix was pawing at the door because his buddy got loose and couldn't get back in the yard. My daughter went next door to let the owners know but no one came to the door even though vehicles were parked in the driveway.
We have lived in our house since last June and only once have we ever seen anyone out to play with the dogs. They bark all day/night because they want attention. They get loose from the yard every now and then and I just want to kidnap them sometimes because it seems that their owners don't have time for them. One weekend the family went on a trip and left the dogs in the back yard with a pile of food, well that was gone long before they got back, so it was a sleepless night for us because of the constant barking. It makes me angry because they have two dogs, but don't seem to care about them. We had a dog, we wanted him, we loved him and he is no longer here.
I wasn't always a dog lover, much less a basenji lover….I have always been partial to kitty cats. The first time I heard about the breed was through my husband, Jason. He had a red and white girl named Nikita (she had a white nike swoosh on her head), she passed before I met my husband. whenever he looked through pictures of Nikita, my husband would always mention he wanted another one and I was completely against it. When we moved to San Antonio the first time (military) a few years ago, we went to the Rodeo and surprisingly there was a basenji breeder and abut 3 b's there showing her dogs (2007 San Antonio Stock Show and Rodeo). My husband tried again to make me fall in love with his perfect breed, but still I would not budge. A couple years later while Jason was deployed in Afghanistan, we were living in Louisiana and the children and I were watching Animal Planet (Dogs 101) and there they were, basenjis! I quickly started recording the episode so Jason could watch when he got home. After that episode, I got a little more interested in the breed, and eventually falling in love, so I started doing a little research, which led me to BRAT. There, I found a beautiful male tri named Tut and send the info to the hubster. He was happy to see that I was open to the idea of a basenji, but the timing was way off, our boys were still in diapers and with his experience with Nikita, he wasn't sure toddlers and a basenji would be a good mix. So enough time had passed as well as the diaper phase when this past fall we thought it was time to start looking for our very own family basenji. Jason didn't grow up with pets, so it was always his dream to give his kids a childhood with a dog at the center of their memories....sweet isn't it? Well it took some searching, a couple heartbreaks and finally with help from some of you, we found our dream dog with Brenda at Signet Kennels. Well, you know how the short story ended. Losing Timmy has been so hard, not only because how much we loved and wanted him, but because how soon we lost him. We are still very much mourning him, but as it tends to do, life must go on.
When Timmy was killed, my mom suggested getting another dog to get over our loss. We got into a big argument and I told her there is no way I can think of replacing him and another dog will not help. The past month, I've been reading through posts/threads and saw a few stories where some folks after losing a dog, adopted another, which helped with the grieving. I check BRAT at least 4 times a week with mixed emotions. There are two wonderful dogs listed in TX and I love them both. I occasionally ask Jason if he thinks we could try again and his answer is a steadfast NO. It upset me until finally he explained to me in a way for me to understand. He said what happened to Timmy shouldn't have and could have been avoided. We had him two weeks and we failed him, costing him his life. The emotions he went through during the whole process from beginning to end were such a roller-coaster. He feels embarrassed and ashamed that things went about the way they did. He also doesn't want to disrespect Brenda by replacing Timmy. He says that if he were a BRAT coordinator, he would not give us another dog because of what happened. I try to tell him it was a horrible lesson learned, that we could make changes and set up better ground rules, but perhaps he is right. I think he feels guilty because Timmy escaped under his watch. I was out of state and he couldn't put as much effort into searching for him with two little boys to look after in the meantime. It saddens me that he has closed the door to another basenji. He says maybe another breed, a small (yappy) dog, perhaps. But I don't think I can be swayed. I love basenjis and I don't want a different breed.
So, I guess for the time being, I'll just read, envy and live vicariously through your stories from afar, maybe leave a comment here and there. Thanks for letting me ramble and once again thank you all for your kinds words regarding Timmy.