I didn't mean that I want to let him go for me. I mean if I hold tight to him he will be stuck here and not be able to fully go to the Bridge. I will always have him in my heart,after all he was with me for almost 17 years. I also had his mother for that long. When a pup is born here and you hold him in your hand,it is like really giving birth to them yourself.
Joshua was always special to me. I knew from the moment he was born that he would stay with me.
I believe that our dogs can and do return to us. If Joshua doesn't move on he can't begin the journey back which can take years.
When my first Thunder passed away in 2003, I grieved until 3 weeks after his death a brindle just like him was whelped here. In my grief, I fully believed that it was Thunder coming back. Only after many years did I realize that it wasn't Thunder. I feel real bad about that because I put expectations on Thunder 2 that couldn't be.
Only after fully letting go of my first beloved Thunder did it lay the foundation for him to return.
In 2014, my Diva had a little brindle boy. I immediately knew that this was my Thunder returning. His name now is Thunderbolt, Bolt for short.
I miss my second Thunder,but I know that he too will return one day.
This is why I don't want Joshua to get stuck here. I waited and grieved for 11 years for my first Thunder to return.Now ,I'm finally at peace with his return.
Please don't think I'm crazy. Reincarnation is real and our dogs do come back. I do know that Joshua will return.
There was such love between Joshua and me that his return is a given.
I'm still not doing well after the loss of my babies. Although my other dogs are all there rallying around me it's hard.
My Diva,who is also my Service Dog is the best at helping me. She cuddles with me and makes me feel safe and special.
I really need to let go of Joshua especially because I still feel his presence in the house,I see him and hear him as well. I also think that my other dogs see him too. I know that if I don't let go,his spirit can't move on. But, it's so hard.
So sorry for the loss of Kona. Joshua had Lymphoma as well.
Thank God he never lost his appetite and ate all three meals
on the last day.
He was not doing well last Sat. and even though I had dog shows
to go to,I stayed home with him.
I had a long talk with him and told him it was alright to go. I know
he was in some discomfort,I made him comfortable with some
After he ate his supper,I went up to do some things and after a half
hour,came down to check-up on him. He went peacefully in his sleep.
He had a full life and raced for many years.
Never a fast dog,he always ran for the fun of it and never was
aggressive on the field.
His son, Thunder was a sweet and gentle soul who loved everyone
he ever met. I never raced him as it wasn't his thing. He was content to
be a couch potato and rightly so.
They will be missed here. My other b's are looking for him everyday
and I see and hear his spirit in the house. He has not left yet.
It's been a hard month for me as my Thunder left me suddenly on Aug.26.
He would have been 14,never sick a day in his life,I found him gone 2 hours
after he ate his dinner.
Then, on Sept. 24, Joshua left me after a long battle with cancer. He would have been 17
on Nov. 23 if he had lived.
I miss my boys, Joshua was Thunder's father.
I huge hole is in my heart.
5-HTP is a natural form of SSRI. It is a better alternative to Clomicalm.
Clomicalm is just the doggie version of Prozac.
I prefer to use natural products as opposed to chemical ones. I learned
a lot by losing my beloved Thunder. And, 5-HTP works right away.
Try a little raw honey, if it's a capsule,open it and mix with the honey.
Put it on a spoon or a butter knife and smear on his tongue.
I have found that the honey is absolved right away and so he can't
throw it up.
Give the honey without the meds at least 3 times a day as it is a great
source of calories and energy.
I've used this also 40 years with my B's and it has always worked.
Let me know how it goes and good luck.
I get my enzymes at the Vitamin Shoppe and they are there house brands.
Before I started adding these to Diva's food she would throw up. Now, she eats better and no
vomit. They have helped her put on weight and keep it on with less food.
She eats about 1/2 cup of grain-free kibble in the morning and 4 or 5 nuggets of the Primal Beef at night.
She weighs 20 lbs now and has kept her weight as before she only weighed 18/19 lbs.