Thank you all.

I can now talk about him without breaking down. I still tear up. I can look at his pictures and his toys. There's still a void and it's still painful and I still cry, but not as much.

We have his ashes on the windowsill, one of his favorite places.

@DebraDownSouth:

I am so sorry. I lost my basenji at 6 to lymphoma. Spent 5 mos and many thousands on chemo and treatment but she crashed on every protocol

What were her signs? We didn't know it was cancer until it was too late. If we had known, I seriously thought I would put him through chemo just to keep him with me for longer, but I know he's no longer suffering and I hope he's in a better place.

Thank you everyone for your condolences.

Thank you.

Yes.

I see you're from Rolla. I grew up in Cabool. I had a basenji from a breeder in the area. His name was Mack ( the breeder).

Thank you.

We had it steam cleaned because of the giardia. At the time we thought he was coming home and so we disinfected everything.

I will still take a look at that because I do have a husband who likes to make a mess. >__<

Biopsy showed he had high-grade lymphosarcoma.

Thank you both. I'll try and upload videos and pictures of him soon.

@Rocky1:

I am so sorry to hear this !
Don't dispare, it is true that dogs go to heaven.
It is right in the Bible that they are there.
I will light a candle for your sweet baby,for safe
passage over the Bridge.
This candle gets lit every time I hear of a dear dogs passing.
If you want a good website to go to for a memorial, go to
In-Memory-Of-Pets.com
I have all my B's listed there. It's a wonderful website.
May you find peace in the knowledge that your baby is in the
arms of his creator.

Does it really say that in the Bible? That's been one of my boats concerns.

He was only 3 1/2. He should have had plenty more years of laying in the sun, chewing up socks and underwear, stealing my food, hogging the bed, belly and leg rubs, and so much more.

It's not fair. I feel so empty. The house is empty. There's just this void. I didn't know it could be so painful. I keep picturing him all over. My memories are so fresh and vivid like it was just yesterday.

How do you get through it?

Thanks.

Vet found cancer. It somehow spread very fast within a few weeks. He said nothing could be done. Our baby boy crossed the Rainbow Bridge yesterday. My husband had to make the decision to put him to sleep. I was too distraught.

I hope to God that there truly is a life after death for not only humans but our pets. I can't handle the thought that he's gone and that that's it.