You guys…you are just the greatest! Your support means so much to me! I had a rough morning (don't worry..I didn't smoke). Then, I went to see my mom in the rehab center. My stepsister was already there. Boy, did she stink!;) She must have just had a cigarette. Did I smell like that? No one ever told me I did (maybe they were just being polite?):rolleyes: Who knows...Anyway, I am finding it the hardest when I am driving in my car. Sounds funny considering that cars don't even come with cigarette lighters and ashtrays. I bought myself a new CD (Dreamgirls..the movie) and blast the music to drown out my desire for the bad stuff (or as my friend lovingly calls them, cancer sticks). So generally I don't think about it that much, but, when I do, I remind myself that I quit and I am not going back!
I think I saved about $ 40.00 so far.
Thank you, thank you all! Good news! My mom does not need surgery. She has a fractured knee but not a torn tendon like they thought. Thank you to the doctors in West Palm Beach, Fla. Hopefully, she will be coming back home to Staten Island tomorrow and will start rehab. As for me, another day I can pat myself on the back. Totally forgot about cigarettes because my mind was so preoccupied. Oh, also, today at work…I became one of those "reformed smokers" and gave the "lecture" to my co-workers as they were going outside on their break. Ha, ha:D
Thank you again for letting me vent! You guys are the greatest!
PS I went out tonight and bought Lillie her party hat. She will be 2 on 1/18.
OK-so far, I have been very good. I am going on a week of being smoke-free.
Stress…I am stressed. My mom broke her hip in Oct. Long story short...she went thru rehab and was doing well. We convinced her to fly to Fla (instead of driving) as she and my stepfather are snowbirds. My stepfather was also recently diagnosed with alzheimers. Here's the stressful part...2 weeks in Fla and we find out she was hit by a car. She is OK, considering it could have been really bad. Fractured knee and a problem with a tendon above the knee. Probably will need surgery. My sister spent over 7 hours arranging her and my stepfather to fly to NY today and bring her to Manhattan for surgery. After all that time, her blood pressure went up and she cannot fly. My sister was frustrated...she took it out on me...I feel helpless and stressed!:eek:
Oh well, feel better now that I vented. I know everything will work out..I need to do my deep breathing and reach for a straw to chew.
Thanks for listening!
Congrats Basenji Boy to you and your family on your accomplishment. I can't wait until I can say that I have been smoke-free for 3 months!
I just figured it out…I smoked 1/2 pack of cigarettes a day. At $ 8.00 a pack...I will be $ 1700.00 richer in a year. I can buy lots of goodies for myself!:D
Today was alot easier than I thought it would be. Who knows about tomorrow? Thankfully, I have alot of bags of the 100 calorie Nabisco chocolate chip cookies. I am taking it one day at a time. That's the best I can do!
Thanks to everyone!
Thank you again for all your support. Jennifer-I am so sorry for your sister's friends family. The thing is I know how bad smoking is. My father died of a heart attack at the age of 50. It's such an addictive habit and for so many years I have used my stressful life as an excuse for smoking. Now that I am getting older (and not that far from my father's age when he passed away)…I think all these horror stories are starting to sink in. As you know, my son has autism and I need to be here for him. I need to make sure his life is in order. I need to do alot of things. Sorry, I know I should get off my soap box. I am very proud of myself. I hate to fail and I believe that is why it took me so long to quit. I am determined (in my father and friend's memory and especially for my son) to stick this out. I appreciate all your support and advise. Thanks again.
Thanks for all your support. It has been difficult. Almost at the 48 hour point. Someone told me a disgusting thing to do if I have the urge for a cigarette. It was told to a senior adult by her doctor. Here goes…hold your stomachs...mix cigarette butts with water. Everytime you reach for a cigarette, take a sip of that disgusting water. Just the thought of that discourages me from smoking. I hate to admit it...I miss it. I know I am doing a smart thing for me and my family. Hopefully, these cravings and desires will get less and less. Now, I will take Lillie for a long walk!